If you want to believe in God, read the bible.
Many people who do exactly that, read and study the bible turn away in disgust and find such bible study to cement the view that there is no god, or if there is it certainly isnt the desert storm god worshipped by the Israelites.
I have read the bible cover to cover 7 times.
At about the 5th time, lost faith and became an agnostic.
Now going on my 8th read my faith is rekindling.
The desert God pointed to Jesus.
Jesus is the answer.
I spent 30 years denying God. Now in my twilight years, I see the light.
Maybe someday you will see the light maybe you will never see the light.
Maybe you will see a different light.
One thing I know is many here do not know what I am talking about or understand.
I'm Ok with that.
I cant prove my believe and no one else can prove their belief or lack of belief.
At the end of my belief is eternal life.
At the end of non believers belief is nothing. Scientifically documented.